Thursday, April 3, 2008
Yesterday our agency announced group F. Groups go to court and then have an embassy date. We hoped (and I really thought) we'd be in this group. We aren't! I spent last night crying and feeling so worried and frustrated. I know it's in God's hands and in His timing but I'm letting the stress get the best of me. I called the agency today to see if we will be able to make it into group F and was told we will make it into the next group...G. By looking at the calendar and the past dates of groups, court dates and travel dates...I estimate that hubby will travel to Ethiopia just before my due date! We won't know for a few weeks what our court date is and then a few more until we know the travel dates. Yes, that's mostly why I'm so stressed...but also because our baby girl is getting older without us. I want her to come home. I'm making my back-up plan for delivering a baby without my hubby. I can't imagine this scenario as he is the only one I want with me. We have the option of having our baby escorted home but we don't want to do that. I want hubby to see Ethiopia. I went to bring home our son and I want hubby to experience it. Even if it means missing a birth here. I will spend more time praying today. I have had brief moments of peace last night and this morning...knowing that it is God's will. But...then I've had lots of crying moments too. Send up some prayers for me and our family.